Bücher veröffentlicht von Austin Macauley

It was the fall of 1966. Of course, I had tasted alcohol briefly with a sip here and sip there, but this was different. This was the beginning of a lifelong battle with alcoholism. I had decided that I would attend the sock hop after the football game.For more than three years I had dreamed of having a relationship with this one very special girl. I was a senior and she was a sophomore. I came into the dance and placed my shoes in a corner of the gymnasium. Some of my friends were lined up along the wall. All the girls were seated in the bleachers on the other side of the gym.I came into the dance virtually unnoticed as I was not a really popular kid in high school. As usual at these festive occasions the music was playing but no one was dancing. This seemed to be common practice at these events. Oh, there was some mingling going on between football players and cheerleaders, however, the vast majority of us who wandered blindly through high school, incapable when it came to communication with the opposite sex.We all thought about it but we didn't act on it. This is my real first recollection that I had such a fear of rejection and would struggle for most of the rest of my life to try and overcome that fear. Addiction would somehow enter the scene and, for time, would cover the fear gently leaving me to believe I was the one in control. This would become a disastrous illusion.

Jason Stouter, formerly of the CIA, and his partner, Sali Bryant, formerly of the FBI, operate a business that advises international corporate travelers on terrorism, and contracts out to the CIA and Homeland Security for various jobs. When Jamie Horgood, a Homeland Security Intelligence Analyst, receives an anonymous tip that a package of jewels is supposed to be turned over to a woman who may be involved in an international kidnapping and human trafficking operation, she has no idea Jason's quest will eventually lead to the kidnappers of the U.S. President's daughter, Charise Pearl, and a human trafficking ring. Our two heroes enlist the help of the most successful jewel thief in America, Masen Williams, to identify the gemstones, and eventually use his boat to follow the kidnappers to an island fortress with a huge hidden cave in the Eastern Caribbean that contains the enslaved women and children.On the other side of the world, in Ukraine, the extremely wealthy owner of a 300-foot superyacht entices beautiful women from the area to come with him to make a new life in America as models and movie stars. It's a swindle, and the women are destined to become trafficked at exorbitant prices. However, the President's daughter has been transferred to his yacht and our heroes have to save her, as well as the captives from Ukraine, before the yacht's owner takes off, leaving the protagonists with no hope of saving Charise Pearl.

I looked at the mirror withinto see who looked back at meI thought for sure I would see myselfwho else could it bebut the more I look the more I seeyou staring right back at meYour genuine sweet smilethat which is visible from a milethe blissful twinkle in your eyesoblivious to anything else under the skyyour lips beckoning methe more I look, the more I seeThe sunlight reflecting off your hairlike an ocean in which I long to dissolvethe warm glow of your skinmade me forget when it all beginAll reflecting back on memaking my heart warm and soul freeI looked at the mirror withinto see who looked back at meI thought for sure I would see myselfwho else could it beBut the more I look the more I seeyour image that seeped into me

Often, life throws us some unexpected curveballs. For some people, the challenges and obstacles we face are so intense that they can make or break us. This book is a journey that takes the reader face-to-face with the challenges of being bullied in more ways than you may expect. Life can really beat us up by throwing us punches and jabs that are near-unrecoverable. It is when we are knocked down to the ground that we learn the most about ourselves. If you feel like life is bullying you from all directions, and you are running out of answers or places to turn, then this book is for you. If you've ever felt hopeless with no place to hide, then this book is for you too. The author is about to take you upon two parallel journeys into the abyss and back. Lessons are learned as the unimaginable becomes reality. The author's survival of the two traumatic experiences is enlightening and inspirational. Fasten your seatbelt as you take a rollercoaster ride that will have you self-reflecting on every page. It's time to be inspired as you've never been inspired before.

Some called her "Crazy Beth", others called her the "Myth of Amherst," and some called her simply a gifted genius. She was stunning and intelligent and was ahead of her time when it came to advocating change for society regarding women's rights and minorities' equality. Who is the girl behind the poetry? Why were so many of Emily Dickinson's 1,800+ poems about death? What was the true meaning behind her cryptic poems? Who were the Master poems written to?Join B. D. Watson as she welcomes her debut novel, Darkly Dickinson: The Untold Story of Poet Emily Elizabeth Dickinson, revealing all the mysteries that wrap around the most loved and read literary genius of all time. Darkly Dickinson will walk you through the life of poet Emily Dickinson from her childhood abuse to her teenage years of being bullied by her teachers and classmates, and then to her college years at Mount Holyoke when she was grabbed out of her bed to be a part of sinister acts performed by the girls who taught her how to dabble in witchcraft, and finally to her adult years with her cat-and-mouse chases with men. Darkly Dickinson will take you through the heartbreaking deaths of all her loved ones including her romantic interests, and finally you will be led to Dickinson's mental breakdown that led to her isolation from society for over 30 years.Read Darkly Dickinson and you decide for yourself, was 'it' fact or fiction? Were her imaginary friends demons or simply a figment of her imagination? Be prepared for an immense amount of pulled heartstrings, leaving you begging for more.

Imagine if we were both blind and we fell in love based on a conversation. I would not know what you look like and I would have no choice but to fall in love with the things you say, your journey and your story. We all have a story to tell, And I want ours to be the most inspiring.I imagine two people who both want the same thing, and never having met each other, they aspire to share their dreams and life's plans together. I believe there are still amazing and incredible people out there who have been hurt so many times that they may have locked love in a vault using heavy chains. They may still believe that the only key to unlock the vault will be given to that special someone. So grant me this opportunity for us to speak before you make all observations based on my physical appearance.Hear my story and judge me by my conversations first and let's give love a different name based on the things we hear and not what we see.

This story opens with a murder: a prominent criminologist at a provincial university is found dead, with his head beaten in. Neither his academic colleagues nor his students liked the victim it seems, and the police investigating the crime are confronted at the outset with too many motives and too many suspects. Then the professor of the criminology department is found with her throat cut. Apart from being colleagues, did this pair have anything else in common? Who hated them both enough to kill them? Who else is at risk? Is there a malign presence stalking the calm corridors of academe, and can the police move quickly enough to prevent further deaths? In a fast-paced narrative, persuasive in its realistic depiction of both university life and a police murder investigation, the reader is immersed in the events and is present at the interviews of suspects. Using multiple strands of narration, the author takes us on a forensic path into the mind of a clever and ruthless killer.

These poems invoke waves of emotions, pulling you in before spitting you out - exhausted, and never the same as you were before. They will open old wounds and help to heal new ones. They will force you to confront your own experience and that of those around you. These poems helped repair my soul and regain my spirit through heartbreak, abuse, mental illness, and loss. I hope they can do the same for you. In a sea of darkness, know that you are not alone, and that it's okay to not be okay.

Johannah is introduced in the midst of the destruction of her life by the suicide of her husband, whom she found hanging in her bedroom closet, followed by the knowledge that he premeditated and financially planned his death to leave her with enough money to live on for years. After much sorrow and pity of family and friends ad nauseam, she flees her state and moves, buying an old Victorian house to start her life over. She soon discovers the house is alive with its own personality, and as her bisexual sister and free-spirited mother come to stay with her to help her pick up the pieces, the house picks up its fervour and begins telling its own story of tragedy and horror locked within its walls. This haunting story is filled with lovable characters and is chilling to the very end.

The unhappy narcissist is threatened by the loss of beauty. The sophisticate takes reward from the geometry of desires. The eccentric form defective passions. The restless spirit seeks out a series of liberating falls. The daydreamer is charmed by planetary coincidences. The womanizer falls victim to fatal attractions. The loner finds amusement feeding his inflated imagination with scenes of mystery. The awareness of mortality leads them to the expression of passions, and mistakes. The carousels of all these people's little panics perpetually rotate, each circle closes for another to open and the tyranny of existence continues to be summed up in the agonizing question: the eternality of the temporary or the temporary eternity? Against a background of the universe's vast mirror, to what extent can the instantaneous, the insignificant and the random leave any trace on time's relentless flow, giving another dimension to eternality?

A shift to at-home working may be one of the lesser side-effects of the COVID-19 pandemic. Some will undoubtedly welcome longer lie-ins, saved commuting costs, and more time with loved ones. It may sound appealing, but WFH could have drastic consequences for your health. A lack of social contact can take a huge toll on our mental well-being, with many relying on 'water cooler chat' to save them from the despair of loneliness. As if the emotional impact of WFH was not stark enough, unsupportive chairs and make-shift desks are leading to a rise in 'tech neck,' with muscular niggles becoming a daily ache. Not to mention the stress of mixing home with work, and unhealthy snacks always being on hand! WFH may also make us couch potatoes, as the stroll to and from the station gets taken out of the equation. As if all that wasn't enough, rolling from the bedroom to the boardroom - only to work into the evening - is a recipe for burn-out. Healthy Habits While Working from Home provides practical, expert-led advice on how to stay physically and mentally well in a remote office while we adapt to the 'new normal.'

This is a story, written through the eyes of a 10-year-old boy, who is trying to understand dementia, the devastating disease that has gripped hold of his beloved grandfather. It is a beautiful, heart-warming story of a grandson who, even though his world is being turned upside down, wants to make sure that his grandfather never forgets him. Hopefully this book will help parents explain dementia to their children and help kids understand the effects of this devastating disease.

Sally the Shrew lives in a tiny burrow in the corner of the garden belonging to a cottage in a small village in North Lancashire. Sally lives with her five youngsters: Bubble, Squeak, Pip, Poppy, and Syd. Read about Sally and her youngsters adventures on their days out and all the friendly animals, birds and other characters they meet. There are also some not so friendly characters that they bump into along the way so you will read of how they deal with the drama they are faced with! Sally loves to educate her youngsters all about the places they visit on their days out and teaches them fun games to play outdoors whilst enjoying the beautiful scenery of the countryside, beaches, estuaries around the towns and villages in Lancashire and Cumbria. Join Sally, Bubble, Squeak, Pip, Poppy, and Syd and read about their exciting adventures.

Growing up in New York City can have its challenges, but it can also be full of fun adventures. NYC is full of rich resources and experiences if one knows where to look. The diversity of cultures, languages, and places to visit are in abundance. A simple bus or train ride can take you into a distinct cultural experience where you can see and hear new sounds and smells of exotic foods from around the world. Our character resides in one of the boroughs of NYC, the Bronx. He is passionate about figuring out how to become a doctor. His friends, both boys and girls, are talented and gifted in diverse ways in the STEAM fields. How were those talents developed? Where can they find resources and mentorship? These young friends share their uncertain thoughts and dreams. This story illustrates young people of different ages, genders, and ethnic backgrounds sharing their interest. What is the common thread among them all? Join the adventures of this crew as they figure out their next moves while having some fun in New York City.

Poetry should be transitive, and deal with something other. Thus, a doorway offers transition, liminal space, an invitation, a going across, into possibly numerous somethings other. We can't assume, however, that the door is always open; if closed, we need to open it. A doorway can confront us: Have we the courage to reach for the handle? Given the horrors of 2020 and 2021, we must open the door both to grieving and thanksgiving. The poems here are midrashim. Midrash is a reflection on scripture. These poems first imagine passages and stories from the Bible and then reimagine them: they build stages, create, and breathe life into characters, and landscape biblical passages with new, often challenging, backgrounds. Many of the poems here have religio-political subtexts. The poems speak of darkness, the things that darken our country and our hearts, but they also speak of the life-giving lights of mystery, wonder, and thanksgiving, the things that give us hope. As writer and poet Louise Erdrich tells us, "This is how our lives complete themselves, / as effortless as weather, circles blaze / in ordinary days, and through our waking selves / they reach, to touch our true and sleeping speech."

The Ancients believed that Elementals-fairies, sprites, gnomes, and dragons-lived among us. In time, these beings became the stuff of fantasies and legends. But what if, what if they are still alive and living among us? And can only be seen by the young or the young at heart. Or what if we only hope they are still alive? But we only tell stories about them. Sometimes the Elemental interacts with people, preferably children-people or children-like adults; sometimes they interact among themselves; and sometimes, we only hope they are still alive. Here are four short stories that try to answer those questions: one each of fairies, gnomes, sprites, and dragons. If you enjoy short stories, if you enjoy fantasy, you just might enjoy this book.

The universe is ending, ripping itself apart at the seams. It started almost imperceptibly, a few stars missing from the night sky. Gradually, it increased until entire galaxies had been swallowed whole. As for the people living there, well... There isn't much they can do to stop it... is there?

Don Yates enrolled as a Peace Corps Volunteer after responding to the challenge then-President John F. Kennedy issued to young Americans to 'ask not what your country can do for you; ask what you can do for your country.' From compiling over 500 pages of a diary kept while he worked as an educator and community developer in the Philippine Islands on the southern island of Jolo in the Sulu Archipelago, he gleaned over 25 stories, or episodes, depicting highlights of his life there along with reflections of local culture. Many episodes, such as the prologue entitled Culture Shock, depict a young man's orientation and involvement in a way of life very different from his upbringing as an American. Complete with photographs from his two-year tour of duty, Don has captured the essence of an area of the world rarely seen or visited by outsiders while sharing how he grew as a young man in a foreign land.

Shishyashram, a community of Christians stewarding their skills and minds to glorify God, has the unique opportunity of reaching out to the red-light district of GB Road in New Delhi to share the love of Christ with the women who reside there. The Holy Spirit led us to go there and revealed to us how our Lord Jesus walked on this earth, choosing to meet people no one else wanted to see. If we were to follow in the steps of Jesus, then our path was destined to cross GB Road.The red-light district is associated with violence, abuse, organized crime, and human trafficking. While many have given up on people who live there or are trapped there, we know full well that the Lord has not given up on them. He takes His love to them in revealing to them the kingdom of God.Our faith in Jesus gives us hope for the deliverance of the captives of GB Road. When Jesus came to seek and save those who were lost, He went and met the people in the places where they lived.The incarnation of the Son of God did not complete in His birth as a human but found its fulfilment when He humbled Himself and served the most despised, rejected, poor, sick and oppressed, and those who were captives and lived on the other side of the wall-those who were slaves to crime, injustice and the flesh trade. He wants believers to follow Him in such places too.John 12:26, Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honour the one who serves me.

Jane was always going on adventures as a child. In Adventures of Jane, she literally goes to the edge and back with little separation between her and landing in the deep dark scary unknown. Never failing Jane, Scott, her brother, saves the day, at least until they arrive back at grandma and gramp's house.

Nadia has always felt something missing in her life. She turns to religion, love, and spirituality in search of fulfillment, but her journey takes an unexpected turn when she discovers the thing she thinks she's been searching for. Divinely Timed follows Nadia as she navigates unexpected twists and turns on the path to self-discovery.

How can an adoption be closed, yet open at the same time? This story shares an intimate look at a relationship bonded through letters. The precious correspondence was encouraged by Destinee's adoptive parents. They embraced the idea of their daughter having contact with her birth-mother while preserving their privacy. The adoption agency forwarded letters back and forth, keeping personal information secret until it was time for a remarkable reunion!This book details the journey of a young woman who finds herself pregnant at 14. She is forced to grow up in a hurry as she makes a life-altering choice. Will it all work out for the best in the end? Can adoption have a fairytale ending? Can a birth mother ever find peace with her decision? Can adoption make a difference in this world? The title should give some clues, but the story provides the answers!

Experience the musings of an early morning wanderer in Outside Inside Out, a collection of poetry that delves into the depths of the human mind. From profound reflections to light-hearted musings, these poems offer a unique perspective on the world. Through the use of rhyme, the collection reflects the love of, and influence by, literary greats such as Dickens and Shakespeare. Immerse yourself in this thought-provoking collection and discover the beauty of the everyday.